This summer has been, well, interesting. I had a job list that was two typed pages long....and I still have a job list that is two typed pages long. All my "goals" got put on the back burner when my body decided to shut down. While attending the Ontario Registered Music Teachers Convention in Burlington, I ended up in the hospital with internal bleeding. 5 days and 1 blood transfusion later, I returned home to Brockville with an extremely low hemoglobin level and no energy. Trust me, spending a holiday in the hospital is no picnic. BUT, trying to be kind to myself and allow my body to heal is even harder.
I love being focussed. I love my job. Theory, teaching and communicating with other teachers is my passion. Not having the energy, stamina, strength or ability to focus on my passion is demoralizing.
I have been surrounded by facebook and yahoo group friends who have continued to remind me to be kind to myself, to take time to allow my body to heal, and to just throw the job list out the window. They still are not sure where the bleeding was happening, or why it was happening....so I have several Doctor's and Specialist appointments lined up.
In keeping my words of wisdom from my net friends in mind, I am not going to apologize for not being up-to-date with my blogging! I am going to trust that if you are reading this, you understand that my journey as a teacher, editor, mother, wife and friend is what it is....and that I am just doing the best that I can!
Today I am going to be kind to myself. I am going to stop when I need to. I am going to nap when I need to. I am going to do what I can at the speed that my body can handle. And I am going to continue to thank God that I am alive and that I have friends and family who love and accept me.
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